hatefully

nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love

this song is currently playing ~ im listening almost everyday every moments.
i had bad nightmare recently, almost every single night i didn't sleep well. I just want a good night and good dream. HELP ~
i has a lots of friends instead of good friends. Someone who really willing listen to me when i down and upset. A million thanks to all my darls ♥
i hate myself because of my selfishness. Im not a good gurl even though i always told myself that im really a good gurl, i won't hurt peoples who really love me and care me, but da fact is, im not.
how can i drag things so long and keep avoiding it ??!! god damn it.
i know what was going on now and i know peoples who love me always protects me from rumors.
i feel bad and hurt. i feel guilty and blank. i know im hurting peoples who love now. god damn it.
im desperate, im in such a bad situation that i willing to try anything to change it.
i just want to stop crying when im alone, it's really hurt me a lots ! It's been so long time since i cry for all these love shit.
should i give up on this love ? everytime when i think of it, i'll just cry and feel bad.

I AM HATING MYSELF MORE AND MORE EACH DAY !!!!!!